Wednesday, July 02, 2008

My Sweetheart's Heart

No news is NOT good news but at least I have some news. After all the tests my husband has what appears to be a healthy heart. But while he was in the hospital a dangerously low resting heart rate was detected which may explain what happened. Hopefully a good cardiologist and who ever else we need to see can answer the hows, whys, and what do we need to dos. For the sake of Mr.Pea's privacy and my anxiety, I won't talk about it too much after today. Normalcy is what we both want so I have promised him and myself that I will keep my dark fears to a minimum and return to my sunny side up self.

(But can I just tell you guys, that I feel even more anxiety now that he's home than I did while he was in the hospital. I didn't think a higher level than what I was experiencing was even possible but apparently my anxiety knows no bounds when I'm worried about someone. I'm sure that it's a release of some kind because the whole time I was trying to stay calm and hold it all together which is what I tend to do during a crisis. Now that he's home, the rest of my repressed nerves picked up some hammers and started banging my system. I think I have a healthy attitude about it though, I'm sort of just letting it happen because I know it will abate after a little while. Exercise helps a lot and today we got in some good beach time. Luckily MrPea is on vacation this week so we'll spend some good time together. Ok I won't say anymore about it...)

I want to say thanks to everyone who left a kind word for me and private emails. You internets are so nice...I luveth ya'll...expect some more vis'tin from me soon.

Oh and on another upbeat note. Peanut(canine member of the "Sick" family) had his follow up appointment today and Doc says he gets a clean bill of health. Finally!


flutter said...

no more sick, family of Peanut!

hele said...

I am so glad Peanut and Mr Pea's heart is healthy.

Lots of love to mother peanut - I hope the ocean gently dissipates her anxiety until it is all gone.

3carnations said...

We had a dog named Peanut, too! She went to heaven about two and a half years ago. My son wasn't quite two years old when it happened, but he still talks about her. He mentioned her this morning, as a matter of fact.

I hope everything works out well for your husband!

Courtney said...

Ohmigosh, I just read about MrPea and I hope all is going to be OK. I'm glad that after that scare you get to spend some quality time together.

Congrats to Peanut's healthy butt, too. ;)

Mariposa said...

Sorry I've been absent...I read the previous posts too...and I can really understand what you're going seems we can handle our own illness so well than seeing loved ones go get sick and we feel helpless about it...the worst part is how our mind beat us up!

I'm glad Mr.Pea is better...will hould you both in my prayers.


Whiskeymarie said...

Just breathe, young lady. You'll get through this. I'm glad that overall he has a healthy heart- that's got to be a huge relief.

And yay for Peanut! Good dog!

SUEB0B said...

I hope that it all works out well. Big hugs.

Laurie said...

Oh honey, you've had such a time of it lately. I'm so glad he is home and doing better. Try to get some rest and take good care.


Big Momma Pimpalishisness said...

Oh I hope everything turns out okay for you guys. Enough medical scares down there already!!!!