Monday, June 30, 2008

When the table turns

I've had the most exhausting two days. My Mr.Pea may or may not have had a heart attack Saturday. We went to the hospital at 3AM yesterday when he woke me up because he was feeling chest pressure,pain in his left arm, and couldn't breathe. He's been there ever since and as anyone can imagine, I haven't had much sleep. They've been performing several tests and hopefully, we'll get some answers this evening. Actually every test they've given him has turned up healthy but with his family history and the symptoms, all arrows point in a direction I don't even want to think about. The words to describe how I feel right now don't exist.

I can handle and kick my cancer's ass. I can go to the hospital and put up with radiation, all those f-ing pills,and being poked and examined. But it's different when it's someone close to me with a possibility of having a worse condition. My husband. Who never gets sick. Who always has a better heart rate than me and I exercise everyday! Who surfs 7 hours straight no problem. Who never even sweats when it's 97 degrees outside. Never goes to the doctor, never even gets a damn stomach ache. Seeing him in a hospital gown and all those wires....I can't even finish that sentence.

He says he's ok and doesn't even feel bad anymore. Laughs at me when I start crying. Wants to come home. He's not even acting sick. Still though, it's been hard and I'm just trying to keep it together and stay positive.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Trying not to scratch myself into a coma

Guess who has hives again. Yep, it's me. At least the good news out of it is that now I know exactly how I got them the first time. Banana Boat Baby. Do not buy this product if you or your child has sensitive skin and DO NOT put it on your baby. It's what gave me hives.
In fact I think it's the tool of the devil. I have a rash all over my arms, on my ears and neck and that's where I put it on the other day to go jogging. Luckily I didn't put any on my face this time because my regular moisturizer already has SPF15. And I do remember using that same sunscreen the day before my last allergic reaction. So the face is ok but the arms look like pink sandpaper. Nice.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

I sang really loud all day

Guess where I went today! And guess what I did!!

I carried my bike down several flights of stairs because I have yet to make friends with anyone in my neighborhood who has a garage. It was about 90 degrees and the wind was against me. I had my ipod plugged in and I sang really loud the whole time. I should have known singing really loud and riding against a strong seabreeze makes you run out of breathe faster than normal. I got a little worn out and stopped at my usual resting spot for a sip of water. There is always a different sort of bird there. This one refused to look my way.

But I was patient.

I locked my bike on the walk way and walked south towards the fancypants country club area. You can see it was pretty crowded down there. I bet they have no clue that they are swimming with so many sharks.... I can't handle a loud, crowded cool-people-section beach, it makes me grouchy so I kept my distance.

I got there just as low tide was about to peak and there were little tidal pools forming. I felt something tickling my ankles, looked down and there were all these teensy fishies swimming.

They must have got stuck in the tidal pools so they'll have to wait the 8 hours for high tide to come back.

It took me a long time to find anything, I was beginning to wonder if I had lost my skills. Then I found a tiny one and so on and so on....Look at the big one. I think it's a bull shark tooth. I also picked up those scallop shells, snail shell, and two vertebrae.

I took a picture of this crab shell so I could look it up in my field guide and also I thought the design was pretty.

I took a rest after about an hour and a half of walking. Someone had left a wagon nearby but it did not ruin my view. I thought about maybe doing some yoga poses for the exercise. But then I remembered I've never done yoga before in my entire life so I don't know any poses. So I just ate a banana and imagined doing yoga instead.

No jokes about my how long my second toe is, because it will hurt my feelings! Actually it won't. Still though, laugh to your self and not to me.

I was worried maybe I was getting too much sun but I couldn't resist one more little search. After putting on more sunscreen of course. ( I use SPF 80 and I still get tan so people please use sunscreen and don't use not being able to get a decent tan as an excuse. Skin cancer. That's all I need to say, ok. )
I found all these.

And what looks like either petrified wood or a piece of bone.

I grew up going to church every Sunday. I don't go very often anymore, once in a while I'll get into a routine of going for a few months and then stop for a while, rinse-repeat. I do consider myself a very spiritual person. I can honestly say that I feel more spiritual and closer to God here at this beach than I ever have inside any church I've ever been in. Does that make me a heathen? It so does NOT!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Tuesday Confession:

Um, I just downloaded "Get into the Groove," by Madonna. My best friend is not home and the 5th grade version of me felt like telling someone. Do what you want with that info, internets.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Why ask why

Because I need to.

Why does a make-up brand I like have to give their colors shades such dirty filthy names? If you've heard about the blush everyone went crazy over called "orgasm", you'll know what I'm talking about. I bought that blush and was happy to hear they came out with the same color lip gloss. Now that it's summer time, "orgasm" doesn't show up on my cheeks very well so I went to get a darker version. Guess what it's called..."deep throat." Yeah. The shame of it all is that I really like it and I'm actually contributing to a company who called the peach-pink powder I put on my cheeks everyday after a porno movie. It's like they sit around and just think up skanky names for make up colors. What the hell happened to,"Peachy Delight" or "Strawberry Kisses?"

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Peanut has a bald spot!!

He's kind of shy about it, but I like it. I had to sneak a picture while he was eating. They shaved him there and put a narcotic patch after his surgery.
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Thursday, June 12, 2008

Guess who was finally allowed to come home today!!!

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I bought him this doggy steps thingy to make it easier for him but he didn't use it. He's pretty drugged out and a little bit skinnier. His surgical wounds were left uncovered to heal and looking at it makes me want to cry. He's doing good though and was so happy to see me. When we got home I thought he might want to have a tiny walk but he pulled his leash to go inside. I'm happy he's here but I'm leaving him alone so he can rest. I missed him.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Random things about Pea

-I don't like sushi. Yeah yeah, I know it's the cool people thing to order but I just don't like it. Add it to the list of all the other stuff everyone else in the world likes except me. I'm just picky. You name it, I probably hate it. And I hate it when people say, Oh you just have to get used to it, it's an acquired taste. My response to that would be, "Do you like getting slapped in the face? No? Oh but you just have to get used to it." Not that I would ever slap anyone, that's just the best analogy I can come up with.

-I have this really cool ability to tell time in my sleep. I have always been able to wake up precisely at the time I'm supposed to. It doesn't matter what time. I never need an alarm clock. I never used one all through high school when I had to wake up at 6am. Even if I were to set the alarm as a just in case thing, I'll always wake up about 10 minutes before it goes off. I've heard my grandfather was like that. This does not mean I'm always on time. It just means I always wake up on time.

-I've never worn anything with animal print. I've also never worn pointy toed shoes. I feel tacky in animal print and pointy shoes make me feel like I should be riding around on a broomstick.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Butts and Graduates

Well Peanut had his surgery today on his, guess where. I didn't post about it because I didn't want to think about it. He was supposed to have it last week but I rescheduled for today because I wanted to make sure I would be able to watch my nephew graduate from high school. I sat there trying not to cry over this little boy who sang ABC's and watched Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, who's boo-boos I kissed, diapers I changed, belly I poked, made endless cups of chocolate milk for, earlobes I pinched. I'm so proud of the person he is and wish always happiness for him. I wish he had been my son.

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But my gosh I was only 13 when he was born so that would have been a little trashy... :O)
He will always be this little boy to me. I should mention that he's just turned 19 and we still call him Little Bobby. He already knows even when he's 50, my sisters and I will still be calling him that. I wanted to take him out to lunch this week to celebrate but my dern skin had to go and act up.

Now about my Peanut
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I just spoke with Peanut's doctor and his surgery went well, although it was more invasive than they were hoping. He thinks he found the funny tissues that were causing my poor Peanut so much discomfort but he's going to have to stay over night and possibly tomorrow night as well. I felt like crying when Dr told me he was in a lot of pain. My poor Peanut. Hopefully when he recovers this will be the last time he has a problem back there, he's been through so much with that. He's been so good natured, nobody would even have guessed he'd been having so many, ahem, painful bowel issues. I can't wait til he gets to come home. I miss him and it's too quiet here without a little friend.

(My skin is much better, I ended up not taking the steroid pills. I don't need it. Still bumpy, but not as bad as last week. Still staying out of the sun and heat though. Also I'm still shy about it so I've only been going out when absolutely necessary which will be today because I ran out of Zyrtec.)

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Little Pea is UG-LEEE

I am having a major skin allergy attack. I went to the doctor yesterday and he gave me some steroid meds. A cream that stings and some pills I haven't started taking yet because he said I could wait a couple days to see if I saw some improvement. I'm taking Zyrtec too. I took this pic yesterday at the Dr's office and still can't believe I'm actually going to post it. I might as well, ya'll saw all my other 'Pea is sick' pics so why should I deprive everyone the pleasure of feeling sorry for me this time too? I shouldn't. Notice how I made it small though. It's too gross for the large size. I'm actually much better today. The red and swelling have gone down but I have all those weird bumps that just look like I have really bad acne. It was the worst around my eyes. I'm pretty sure it's a reaction to the sun, sunscreen, and really strong soap I used on Wednesday because I was in a hurry. I also got stung by one of those mini-bees, a really angry one I should add. So the combination of all those things, plus the fact that it was really hot and there was some pollen in the pool made my skin really furious with me. I have some hives on my shoulders and belly too. But I don't itch. Just my eyes.

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I have self-imposed a quarantine until Monday at least cuz I don't want to scare anyone. Plus the heat makes me feel worse. Hopefully I'll be presentable enough to make a public appearance in a couple days. Until then, the Pea is staying inside and out of the sun. Feel free to cringe. I'll probably take this picture down when I come to my senses so I suggest if you're thinking about printing this out for Halloween purposes, you better do it now. Enjoy your weekend guys. If you don't look like this picture then you're off to a head start already.....