Friday, July 20, 2007

Where the hell am I?

-Under the weather. That's where I've been. I'm exhausted today but feeling better. It's going to take forever to catch up with everyone again. But I will.

- Yesterday was awful just awful. Nothing went right. But it's ok, it could have been worse. Plus it ended well.

-I had a doctor appointment on Wednesday and blood work done. She told me I have to do another radio-iodine pill with body scan in November. The cherry on top is the thyrogen INJECTIONS(my favorite word) two days in a row before the radiation. Nice. It's going to be so much fun.(can you hear the sarcasm or am I just always like that?) It's either that or go off medication for four weeks and suffer the low hormone levels like last time and I. AM. NOT. DOING. THAT. EVER. AGAIN. So I don't care how much those infernal injections hurt or how much they cost. Bring on those damn needles, dammit. She said I couldn't even think about even talking about having a baby for another year possibly two, maybe not all, we'll have to 'discuss' it later. That was the best news ever.(do ya hear it again, this is so not like me I think, what happened to the sweet soft girl I used to know?) Not that I was jumping to have one.... but still, it sucks to have someone say don't. I'll get over it tomorrow. Oh and I gained two pounds. I'll get over that tomorrow too. Ok I didn't really care about the two pounds anyway, I just wanted to test if you were paying attention.

-In spite of it all. Out of all the scary cancers I could have had, this is the one I would have chosen if I were forced to choose. Which I wasn't, so kind of it's pointless to say so. But it's true. Just ask anyone with breast or lung cancer if they'd like to trade places with me and they would, so I really shouldn't be complaining. It's actually curable and fairly easy to cure. I'm supposed to be considered cured but there might have been some left over from the first radiation. My treatments at this points are 'just in case' follow ups and probably overkill. I didn't have to lose my hair or do any of those scary chemo treatments. So I'll stop complaining about it then.

-On the bright side, since I can't have a baby, I'll have plenty enough time to go back to school then. I still want to be a kindergarten teacher. I thought I couldn't because of my voice, but it came back. I'll never complain about my voice again. I also have the ok to travel if I want to. My best friend from a gazillion miles away will be visiting with her daughter too. There, I'm feeling better already.

-Do I have any readers left? Leave me a comment if you still love me. That means you too my lovely lurk friends. And anyway my birthday is tomorrow.


super des said...

I love you Pea.
happy birthday!

flutter said...

I love you too, crazy birthday girl

MsLittlePea said...


Laurie said...

OF COURSE I still love you! And happy birthday!!


Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

I’ve not left you, luv! I check each day. Don’t rush to my spot. Take your time and get plenty of rest. AND most importantly, have a wonderful and VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY:

May you always have work for your hands to do.
May your pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on your windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near you.
And may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

thailandchani said...

Of course we still love you.. and we all check back for you.

khor hai mee kwarm sook nai wan gerd

(In other words.. happy birthday :)



heartinsanfrancisco said...

Happy birthday and a year of excellent health, loved one.

My niece had thyroid cancer, and her little son was pictured on my blog several posts ago. It sounds as if you will be able to have a child, too, just not right now.

Have a wonderful personal New Year, and then come back and kick ass some more.

Mariposa Speaks said...

One of your lurkers...Happy birthday!!!

Wish you all the best...

Hel said...

I love you little pea.

A lot.

Of course.

And I will be thinking of you and praying that all goes well and that you feel better soon.

You would make an awesome kindergarten teacher.

SUEB0B said...

Big hugs and happy birthday.

Whiskeymarie said...

I'm not going anywhere, sweets.
just try and make me.