Monday, October 30, 2006

So here's what's up


Tomorow I go in for my radioiodine. I'm not exactly sure how long I'll have to stay in the hospital but I'm guessing 3 days. I really would rather just be at home but, I'll do my best not to lose my sanity there and my Mr.Pea will be with me as the hospital allows and of course on hand to take care of our Peanut(the merciless lizard killer).

I hope everyone has a safe and Happy Halloween. I'll be back as soon as I can and hopefully be able to say that I'm cancerfree. Let's keep our fingers crossed and have faith that this truly is the begining of the end for my experience with cancer. I'm actually extremely lucky. This could have been a lot worse. People have been saying from the begining that if they HAD to choose what kind of cancer to have it would be thyroid cancer because it really is a successful treatment and I sort of got sick of hearing it. But it's true. Things haven't gone exactly as my doctors have said they would and of course because it's me there were some pretty bad complications and all kinds of puddles I had to step in. But I'm learning a lot about myself and about being strong, about sticking up for myself and saying what I feel without fear. I said to my Aunt that there is an enemy inside my body and my body is at war. Well it's NOT going to win I am. Whatever happens. This is just a small part of my experience here and you know what? It's not even half as bad as what so many other people have to go through-especially those who have worse health(and less insurance coverage if at all)and I'm actually thankful for this if you can believe that. Because although I am a spoiled little brat, I'm not someone who has ever really taken how lucky I am for granted and because of this, as long as I remember this and every other hardship I've had to get through in my life(which,frankly, really isn't much thankfully), I never will.


See ya'll soon!


PS I hope ya'll don't think I was being mean making fun of the "goth" look. Actually I sort of envy the individuality of it all.

2 comments:

SUEB0B said...

I'm hoping for the best for you.'

You ARE NOT a spoiled brat!

Anonymous said...

Wishing the best possible outcome for you.


Peace,

Thailand Gal
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