Thursday, March 13, 2008

Seems like it never ends

I heard from my doctor on Monday about my scan and she says the radiologist mentioned "activity" was seen around my liver that may or may not be a "technical issue" whatever the hell that means. So I'm scheduled for a CAT Scan tomorrow morning so they can figure out exactly what it is. She doesn't think it's anything since it never showed up before on my last body scan from January but my doctor is the damn queen of checking and rechecking. I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to feel about this. I'm definitely not happy. Frankly, I'm pissed off. I have to be selfish and irrational for a second to say, I feel like this is all unfair. I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't use drugs, I eat healthy and I exercise everyday. I don't understand why my body is doing this to me. I sick of looking at those (medical)people's faces. I sick of being asked about my period and other personal bodily functions by complete strangers in front of my husband who's never even seen me pluck my eyebrows because that's just the way I am. I'm sick of needles, I'm sick of IVs, I'm sick of the white or pastel paint and ugly tacky artwork in every hospital waiting room, I'm tired of being on hold listening to really bad jazzy muzak trying to get appointments and confirmation numbers and insurance information. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm. Sick. Of. It. There I feel better.

I have to wake up early tomorrow and drink some really nasty tasting liquid before my appointment and then drink some more nasty tasting liquid when I get to my appointment and they're going to put an IV in my arm for the procedure. It's going to be so much fun......

9 comments:

thailandchani said...

I don't blame you a bit. Most of us would feel that way under similar circumstances. I do hope all of this comes to a rapid end with your health restored so that you can get some peace.

flutter said...

I am holding you close in spirit, girl. Kick this thing right in the ass, I am tired of it messing with my Pea!

super des said...

I agree with Flutter.

MsLittlePea said...

Thanks you guys-I'm such a brat! I'll be catching up with everyone's posts tonight and tomorrow afternoon.

seventh sister said...

I have set a stone on my alter for you. May you have a peaceful day tomorrow.

marymurtz said...

Hang in there, sweetie, and keep us posted.

heartinsanfrancisco said...

Poor baby. I'm so sorry. I wish we could take turns doing this stuff for you while you relax with a pedicure or something.

I hope it's over quickly and the results show that you are in perfect health. Screw their technical issues.

hele said...

You are right this sucks. I'm thinking of you and sending puppy kisses.

Whiskeymarie said...

Sorry, sweets.
I hope everything went fine.
But this does most definitely suck for you.